Sunday, October 10, 2010

So it's official

The bestie is in Portugal.   She packed up her suitcases while I sat on the floor with her on Friday night.  I stayed at her house on Friday night too with the kid, it was bittersweet. I spent a good portion of my teenage years in that house, lots and lots of great memories. I spent more time there than my own house growing up.  I'm really sad that we're not gonna ever be in that house again.

It was seriously hard leaving there yesterday.

I stayed up and tracked her flight last night and was relieved when they landed an hour ahead of schedule. I don't like flying.. I've been to Florida twice in my life and I'm lucky I made it that far because I wanted to kiss the ground when I landed.

She said she's just going on vacation. (A seriously extended vacation).  I won't see her again until June.

I told her I love her... and that she's a crazy bitch for doing this, but I love her nonetheless.

What the hell am I supposed to do now?

I need a webcam... and suggestions as to what's the best one that's not gonna break the bank.

Now is the time this guy in my life needs to step up and be here for me the best he can.. I hope he realizes this.  I rarely talk about him... sometimes it's very complicated.. and I wish it wasn't so much with us.

I might slip a little sometimes, just don't let me fall.