Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Sometimes life sucks.....

My best friend is moving away in 3 weeks. But she’s not just moving to another town or city.. Not even to another state.. She’s moving to Portugal with a stop in Mozambique along the way for a few months.

How am I dealing with this situation? Well, I’ll tell y’all it ain’t pretty.

She’s my bestest friend, the one who has always been there for me no matter what, who was there for me every single day when my dad died and all my other "friends" abandoned me, then a few years later when my mom passed away suddenly she was there within minutes ..no matter what she's always been the one I could turn to without judgement. She’s The kid’s Godmother. I'm closer to her than my own sister and over the past 22 years her family has become my own and her son is absolute sunshine in my life.

Now, I know she’s not gone forever and she promises to come back every summer... But this is the hardest thing I’ve had to deal with in a long time. Just writing this is bringing me to tears.

*ok, take a deep breath*

Yea, so maybe I’m not OK with this moving away bullshit thing but I have to learn to adapt and overcome and I’ve been reciting the Serenity Prayer whenever I feel myself completely freaking out slipping into absolute hysteria

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

I expect to be a total wreck for at least the first few weeks she’s gone.. I figure if I can expect the possibility of a complete and total breakdown the outcome may not be as bad, but I will be prepared for the worst. I know it’s going to be tough on my kid.. Although I try not to freak out in front of him and keep it to myself when I’m in the shower or when I wake up in the middle of the night going OMG WTF am I going to do with this girl 5,000,000 miles away? (ok, maybe not that far, but it feels like it).

I will try to blog more, I will try to keep my mind busy. I'm going to work on a new logo and possibly a total blog overhaul within the next few weeks.

If you're insane enough to follow me on Twitter and you notice me silent give me a little kick in the pants, tell me a joke.. something. I have these crazy ladies in my office to keep my head above water for the most part while I'm here..and my crazy ass family for when I"m not, but ya know.....it’s inevitable that there are going to be days where I’m just not going to be.. Well.. Me.


Absentminded Oracle said...

You are so lucky to have such a wonderful friendship. You two will always be together in spirit.. and there is always skype!